Friday, August 7, 2015


I love to write.  I enjoy putting emotion to paper.  It is cathartic for me I think.  Still, there are times that writing just seems too difficult.  Days turn to weeks, weeks to months and before I realize it I have so much built up inside, I no longer know how I feel, let alone how to put it down on paper.

I have been tapped out recently.  Between the anxiety of having kids home all summer and working my nerves have been shot.  Running has been a great release.  The quiet space.  The endorphin rush.  The fresh air.  It makes a space in my head that I can't get otherwise.

Why do we need that space?  I guess why do I need that space.  I never thought of myself as an introvert.  I have come to decide that I'm an extroverted introvert.  I enjoy people and conversation, but I need alone and quiet to recharge.  I am drained by large crowds.  Quiet conversations or reading a book are my recharge places.

I used to get a recharge by writing.  Maybe I should go back to that.  Who knows, maybe it will be another 17 months before I have anything more to say.

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Our Journey to Phoenix- Part 2

I mentioned that I was going to be sharing more of our journey to Phoenix in the next few weeks.  I wrote everything in a journal as it was happening, so today I am going to share a few of those journal entries.  I may not share the entire entry each time, but I thought this would be the most concise way of going through the entire event :)  Happy reading!

All along the way we have had signs making this move more and more clearly directed.   Every piece of furniture, every little expense.  We received a dissappointing NO from one department and eyt that same day God showed himself in a rainbow while we were praying together.  It was as if He was saying "Trust my promises.  I am faithful."  Over and over I have been reminded that "He who has called [us] is holy and faithful" and that "The Lord blesses them that follow Him".  When we looked into apartments, we found one that (#1) was 3 bedrooms- a rather elusive thing-, (#2) was right by the "tot lot" and (#3) had for it's home (or assigned) elementary school the #1 pick from the Autism society we had contacted.  

Isaiah 58:11 is the theme verse of my blog.  It states that "I (the Lord) will satisfy your desires in a scorched place. You will be like a watered garden, like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail."  I pray that through this move, we, as a family, will be that well watered garden in a scorched land, both literally as well as figuratively!

8/7/14 - It is no fun preparing for a move alone... I have done it enough to know!  The space between my journal entries and the brevity of those entries testifies to my lack of time.

Phil left today with the moving truck.  I have decided to list things that happened along this path just so I can see them all lined up.  They may not be in the correct order.
                                     - Received an offer on the house without ever really listing it.
                                     - Sold Phils car one week before he left
                                     - Got "yes" from all three possible departments
                                     - Found job listings 1 week prior to the application being closed (this was                                             true of all the departments he applied for here)
                                     -  Sold dining set- Lady couldn't get it right away so she sent a deposit and                                         we had a table for 2 weeks longer.  Found a set in AZ for $100 less than                                         we sold ours for!
                                     - Inspection and appraisal (note previous entry)
                                     - No from our #1 pick, but rainbow in the sky the same day reminding us                                            that God is faithful concerning his promises.
                                     - Found out that our #1 pick was retesting again in September
                                     - Found apartment that...
                                             - was ready August 10th (I flew in on the 11th and had already                                                             purchased tickets)
                                             - was fine with Axle (our dog)
                                             - in top school for Kait
                                             - less than 1 mile from school- and all three kids can be at the same                                                  school!!!
                                            - pool and tot lot close
                                            - 3 bedrooms
                                     -  Found out that, in addition to the cousins in the area already, my aunt                                                and uncle are moving shortly after we do!

I have been encouraged every step of the way with this move.  I have never once been unsure, or felt insecure about it.  That is 100% God.  How can I be scared when He is so clearly moving?

There are so many more things I can note.  Big things, like how God provided a work from home position for me when I wasn't even looking for a job and little things, like a brand new Brita water pitcher (the tap water here is HORRIBLE!!) for $2 at Goodwill.  Every step has been guided.  I know there will be days of discouragement ahead.  I have had a few, but knowing, without a shadow of doubt, that this was God's move and not our move makes those days a bit more bearable. 

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Our journey to Phoenix- Part 1

I mentioned that I was going to be sharing more of our journey to Phoenix in the next few weeks.  I wrote everything in a journal as it was happening, so today I am going to share the first two of those journal entries.  I may not share the entire entry each time, but I thought this would be the most concise way of going through the entire event :)  Happy reading!

Multiple people have encouraged me to write about our answers to prayer over the last several months.  I have finally decided to begin writing everything down.

In August of last year Phil lost his job.  At that time we figured that it would be a nice "vacation". Phil immediately filed for unemployment and housing assistance, though I, at the time, considered that unnecessary. Six months went by and unemployment ended.  That same month we found out that Save the Dream was going to take over our mortgage.  Answer #1.  During the course of those six months we had several family members ask if we had considered moving.  I dug my feet in and said NO!!!  but in the back of my head I knew that a move was likely in our future.  I prayed that the Lord would help me be willing to go if He lead.

In April, Phil decided to take a police physical. he has always wanted to go into law enforcement, but was never sure enough of himself to pursue it.  He passed the physical and was asked back to test.  He passed the written test as well... #24 out of almost 300 people!  Huge answer #2.  Because that department was only filing one position, he was not asked back immediately, but was informed that he would remain on "the list".  He decided that it was time to look into other departments.  Once again Arizona came up in conversations with multiple people.  Phil decided to look into departments there and found three that were open for testing.

7/28/14 - due to kid interruptions my thoughts sometimes span days :)
Phil applied to each of the departments and we began to pray that if this was NOT the move we were to take, God would take the jobs off the table.  At the beginning of June we found out that he was accepted to all three departments.  At that point I felt a move was inevitable and began to prepare myself. About the 3rd week of June, the 15th to be exact, Phil said we should update our house posting on Zillow and put a "make me move" price.  We did that.  It was a Sunday evening around 10 p.m.  We planned to clean and take nice pictures the next day.  On Monday, the 16th, at 10:23 a.m. we received a call asking for a showing.  We agreed to Friday evening.  We let them know that we were in the process of posting pictures as well.

On Friday it was clear that the couple was VERY interested in the house.  They came in the door with looks of expectation and excitement on their faces.  The walk through went wonderfully.  They raved about all the work we had done and commented that when they saw the pictures they "were completely sold and this pretty much seals the deal".

Saturday morning they called asking if they could do a second walk-through.  After that walk through they placed an offer on the table.  We took Sunday to pray over it.  I could not get past God pushing us away from everything.. AGAIN.  At church I was a mess.  The thought that I was leaving my church family as well as my physical family completely devastated me.  I ended up having to leave the service and was in the restroom crying when a friend came in and gave me a hug.  That did not help one bit!!  Having all this inside and not being able to share it was just too much.  She didn't need to know why, she just hugged me and said she would be praying for whatever it was.  I love friends like that!!

On Monday morning we countered the offer and they accepted.  Then things began to get really interesting.

Our buyers decided to have a very thorough inspection done as they were applying for a VA loan and the VA can be very picky.  I was certain there would be a few issues, and there were, but they were all very minor.  Still the VA inspection and appraisal were looming over our heads.  I wondered if this was how God would give us our "NO".

Phil had to leave for his testing in Arizona, so during the next several weeks I was alone.  This was not the best time for me to be solo because A LOT was going on!! But, that's how it was and there was nothing I could do about it. I prayed continuously that I would be able to get through everything well.  With not having a Realtor I had to do the inspection and appraisal and I was very nervous about that.

The day of inspection came and the inspector was 30 minutes late.  When he got out of the car it was evident he was up in age, likely mid to late 70s.  I didn't realize until that evening that this gnetleman was completing both the inspection and appraisal.  Apparently that is very unusual (God thing #1).  He completed the inspection by walking around the house and snapping a few pictures.  No probing, no investigating, no pulling stuff out of the wall.  (God thing #2) He then asked me a series of questions.  When did we do the work.. what did we do?  One question he asked that I found very odd.. "What is the agreed sales price?"  He was in my house for 32 minutes.  Then he left and that was that.

A few days later Phil got a call from the inspector asking how we came up with our asking price.  He wanted a list of comparable properties that got us to the agreed sale price.  (God thing #3)  This was the most unusual inspection and appraisal we have ever been through.  The appraisal came through at exactly the dollar amount we agreed as a sales price.  The appraiser made it very clear that he wanted to get this done for us. There is no question that he was sent by God!

Saturday, September 20, 2014

Sunrise and rest

This morning we went on a sunrise hike in a local park.  When Phil said he wanted to get up at 5 on a Saturday to watch the sun rise, I was not so thrilled. I didn't sleep a whole lot, thanks to a phone that decided to chirp all night, so when 5 am rolled around I was already half awake.  I am the first to claim I am NOT a morning person, but every time I get up that early I am amazed at how my day goes.  One would think that I would be grumpier, more easily irritated etc, but there is something about the early morning that rests me.... Rest.  That theme has been rampant in my blog followings this week.  It's ironic how we have to figure out how to rest in this generation.  I think most of it is because we are constantly working, or looking, or learning, or gathering.  I remember my neighbor always sitting in her yard.  She woke well before sunrise.. usually around 3, and by lunch would just sit in the yard with her dog.  Sometimes in the front talking to the kids as we played.  Sometimes in the back with her eyes shut, or reading a magazine.  I'm jealous of that time.  Some would have said she was lazy, but anyone who knew her was well aware of the level of work she did prior to any of us noticing the day had come!  I don't know how to sit and do nothing sometimes.  I can read, but while I'm reading my mind is traveling a million miles a minute thinking of all the things I have yet to do today.  All that to say an early morning hike is the perfect rest for me.  Watching the sun come up over the mountains.  Just sitting for a few minutes and listening to the birds sing.  I had to remind my kids several times to just be quiet.  There is noise all around us, but do we listen?  Do we take the time to sit and revel in Gods glory?  Psalm 46:10 says "Be still and know that I am God! I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!"  I want to make sure that I am being still so that when God is exalted I am aware of it!  How many times to we listen to all the clamor and miss that still small voice.  Over the next few weeks I will be recounting our journey to Arizona.  I was encouraged to start a journal with our story, and I've decided I need to write it out here as well.  I know there aren't many that follow me, but maybe I can encourage someone to hear in the stillness!!  Just because it's quiet doesn't mean God's not moving! 


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Friday, September 19, 2014


Apparently I can blog from my phone. So for the 4 people who told me this week "you need to start blogging again"... I'm back! And mobile :-) ~L

Wednesday, March 6, 2013


Grace by Laura Story .  That says everything.
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