Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Doctors

I never used to be scared or nervous about what would be found when Dr ordered a test. These days it's hard not to be. What changed? I know I haven't changed anything in my diet or routine for the worse, so why is it when I'm concentrating on staying healthy, I get nervous when they need another test? Perhaps I am beginning to taste my own mortality. The frailty of my being. Perhaps it's not so much worry about the "what if" for me, but more for the "what would my family do". I have three little ones to think about now.. that will make you realize your mortality more than anything in this world! I'm just thankful that I can take that worry, that doubt, the questions, and lay them down. Resign myself to release control... a hard task for me, but doable...and let HIM drive for a while!

Monday, September 28, 2009

Where has the year gone???

It's the end of September.... C will be one next week. I can't believe that. SOOOO much has happened in the course of this year. We have had our third child, moved for the 4th time, started school with K and so much more. I feel like that blustery wind outside my window is really out of place. Isn't it supposed to be summer a little longer? We jumped from spring to fall with only a week or two of summer weather. Cold days like these make me miss Florida just a little. The leaves are changing, the air is getting that nasty little nip and I'm craving hot chocolate and a fire! It would be nice if life would slow down a little and let me catch up :) But alas, the time won't stop... that means I have A LOT to do in the next few months!!!!

Monday, September 21, 2009

Thought provoking

I'm not sure why, but for some reason this song has been resonating in my mind the last few days. I love the message of this song. How easily we go about our lives without "being real" simply because we think it's better if no one knows the truth. We forget that it is hypocritical, and that's exactly what turns people off to us in the first place!

Stained Glass Masquerade- Casting Crowns

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Monday, September 14, 2009

Beginning again

Well, it's been a little while since I've posted... yet again :) In the interim we have started school, gone on vacation, hubby has hired and lost an employee and I have started working. Business is the key to preventing boredom. K started school August 25th. She's loving every minute of it. Her speech has begun to improve and she is interacting more with other kids. It's nice to see her not just turn and walk away when another kid at the park comes up and asks her to play. She's interacting better with A too. It's cute to see them get so excited to see each other when K comes home on the yehyow buh. A will run to the circle (a chalk circle I drew on the sidewalk for K to stand in until her aid comes off the bus to get her) and jump up and down until K gets off. Then they will hug and K says "Oh A, I missa you!" It warms my heart :)

We went on vacation last week.... and all came home with the flu. YUCK!! We had a wonderful time though. We went to an indoor water-park/resort called Kalahari. It's about 1 1/2 hrs from here and WELL worth the trip! The kids had a blast. The morning after we got home they kept asking if we could go back to the pool. Hubby tried to slow himself down on a body slide and thus has nasty "rug" burn on his elbows, but other than that we were injury free. We will definitely be going back.

Hubby also had an interesting few weeks at work. He lost an employee this spring and has been trying to fill the slot since. Another branch transferred someone over, and all was well. It was nice to not have to go through training. Well... after about 3 weeks, she gave her 2 weeks notice. She had been with the company for several years, but was offered another position with another company that she felt she couldn't pass up. So, we're back to square one. With everyone looking for work you'd think it wouldn't be so difficult to find someone!!

I started working as well. I'm working from home with a company called Arbonne (www.arbonne.com) We are an all natural health and wellness company. I'm loving it. I started using the products about a year ago, but felt that I was too busy at the time to do anything with the business. With a new house, a new baby, and a new dog I didn't feel I could fit anything else in! I'm glad I waited because now I'm able to totally devote myself to this company, and it's been well worth it. I'm in qualifications to becoming a district manager (the first of 4 levels) and am making my plans to get to area manager (#2 level) by the end of this year. Hubby has been totally supportive. My only wish was that I had more friends closer to me that could get involved with me. I'm making friends too though, which is another HUGE plus for me. I get lonely in my little corner of the world! :) At least I know I can bore you all..... whoever you all are! Writing a blog is a lot like talking to myself... except it's not thought of as crazy!

Well... that's that. I'm going to go blow my nose raw and take a nap!
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