Tuesday, November 17, 2009
You know how sometimes you have something that you're really looking forward to and then something happens and it totally deflates you? Well, that's been happening around here quite a bit recently. Perhaps that is part of the reason I have not taken the time to sit down and write on here. I find that in those times of despair that I don't really want to talk about it. But then I get depressed and grouchy. So of late I have been a rather depressed, grouchy, sweat-clad, mean mommy. Now you get to hear about it! I have learned that it's never just one thing that "pushes me over the edge", it seems to always be a steady drip, drip, drip on the head of my emotion. Isn't that how it goes though? We have one bad morning- step on the dogs bone in my bare feet (OUCH!!!), baby spills cereal and milk all over my freshly washed floor, hair dryer breaks and the new make-up I just bought isn't the right color- and I'm not in the mood to do anything. 'Don't feel like getting out my Bible today Lord, you'll just have to understand and make due with my "HELP PLEASE!!!!" prayers today.' Then one day turns into one week... which turns into one month.. and then two. Pretty soon NOTHING is going right. Those little cave-in's that block out that light at the end of my very long tunnel, suddenly aren't so little anymore and I am feeling VERY claustrophobic. Heaven help us all if a big cave-in happens!! If only there were an oxygen mask that would drop down from the ceiling.. maybe then I'd be okay. BUT WAIT A MINUTE!!!! There is... that Bible that I didn't feel like picking up a few weeks ago suddenly has a new shine to it. All I can do now is be thankful that it didn't disintegrate while I wasn't reading it. Isn't that awesome?? I might not be in the mood to talk to Him, but my God will NEVER let me down! NEVER... even when I'm wearing sweats :) He loves me even when I don't deserve it. So armed with my trusty flashlight of prayer, and my oxygen mask of scripture and hope, I can start digging my way out of this dark nasty tunnel. Just please people... STOP THROWING ROCKS ON ME!!!!!!!!!!
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